The good thing about getting sucked into a new fandom and watching something that’s been around for a while… at least at those epic moments where your precious favorite main character is about to die… you know he/she wont… why? Because there are 4 more seasons ahead of you!
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I want to take a minute just to type up some thoughts and feelings I am having here… for the past 5 years I have transitioned so much between Christian, to Agnostic, to Atheist, and have considered many other “religions”. I’ve had a bit of a hard childhood and have been through quite a bit, starting from when I was 7 years old. At this point in my life my parents were fighting and were about to get a divorce, why, because my dad came out to my mom that he was gay. Well… as you could imagine that caused a lot of issues in their marriage, so a divorce was pretty much imminent. Now, I wasn’t super wealthy or really wealthy at all, but I had nice things, that was about to change, for the next 7-8 years nice things would be something hard to come by. I don’t really want your pitty in telling you this, but it’s a key part to my point. After my parents were divorced I lived alone with my mom and my brother and being the oldest I was pretty much made man of the house. Coming from a country home, moving to the city wasn’t the happiest thing for me, I was very attached to my dad’s side of the family and was kind of spoiled by them in fact. Especially my grandparents and great grandparent. Well… after the first couple months living in the city my grandfather passed away… this really tore me apart cause I never got to see him much when I moved, and then a month later my great grandmother passed away. This sent me into a spiral of depression that I seemed to have no control over at all… so let me get to why the second month made this 10x worse. You see… in the first month my grandfather passed away that started the intense depression, and in the timefame of that month I was so out of control at home and in school that my mom was forced to send me to what most would call a “mental” hospital. This is when my great grandmother passed away… and my doctors ruled going to her funeral would not be a good idea… and to this day I still HATE the fact that I never got to say goodbye. So over the years a lot has happened to me… at the age of 8 I thought very logically and most like an adult and a normal childhood was very hard for me, I was always a serious kid. A couple years later we moved back to the country… being a country kid of course I knew about God, and in the state I was in at that point I always searched for the truth in everything and always searched for answers as logically as possible. God just didn’t really seem logical to me. Now… Christians in general have a very bad name… especially lately due to Westboro Baptist Church. A lot of Christians are ignorant and go blindly by what they are taught in church. The majority of them go by what they’ve heard and what they’ve grown up around and a lot haven’t even read the Bible. In my opinion there are good Christians and bad ones… of course these are the bad ones. I want to make something very clear… I don’t care what ethnic background you come from, whether you’re gay, straight, bisexual, man, woman, or both… there’s someone out there that identifies just the same and also identify as a Christian, and don’t get me wrong… some of those people are the ignorant bad Christians I was talking about… I know because I’ve been out in the world… I now go to college and I have seen almost everything, believe me. People who go out into the world thinking they’re making a diffrence, presenting themselves as Christians and telling gay people, or anyone who seems to be different that they’re going to go to hell… they’re wrong, DO NOT listen to them. I respect every one of your opinions and am completely open to any one. I love people no matter what shape or form they come to me, and I always manage to see good in people evey sometimes when it isn’t there. I still struggle in life with questions that I may not ever answer, but I always search for truth in everything. Atheists have a great quality in them… they search for truth, and having been an Atheist before I know this firsthand. I also believe that the truth really will set you free if you let it. There’s beauty in not knowing things sometimes… my dad is gay and spending the time with him that I have over the years, with him and my “other” dads who all indentified as Christian I’ve learned a lot. My reason for writing this isn’t so much to make you consider being a Christian or any other religion. But to search for your own individual truth… use your own logic and piece together your own truth and your own answers and just be who you are. We’re just one solar system in a galaxy with BILLIONS of stars and planets in a universe filled with trillions of galaxies, and some would argue that our universe is among an infinite amount of alternate and parallel universes that may be in something even bigger! Guys… there are so many possiblities out there… and I hate more than anything to see anyone hurt or to be alone or unhappy… live each day to it’s fullest, spread love to everyone you can and just lend your hand out to those in need if you are able. Help stop the suffering of other’s one person at a time… a kind heart can do so much, trust me I know. If you ever meet one of the good Christians… and I have… they’re full of so much love… unconditional love… be a seeker of truth. For Christians there are three kinds of love, (keep in mind these are latin) Eros love, Philos love, and Agape. Eros love is the love you would share between your significant other… erotic love some would say… Philos is the love you share with a good friend, and Agape is the most important… this is the love I wish people had more of… Agape is unconditional love… and we all could use a bit more of it. I know this all is a lot to take in… but it’s worth a shot to let you all know how I feel. If anyone EVER needs someone to talk to that will accept you no matter what and be 100% open, I am here, send me an ask, anonymously or otherwise.
I had thought it was impossible that I could get myself as a chat partner on Omegle… well… it happened…